This post is going
a bit way off subject from the theme of my blog but I’m sure you will all forgive me this one time.
The subject is writing – And yes even though this is a blog, it’s far from what I would consider writing for me. I used to write on a regular basis. And by write I mean writing actual words on a piece of paper with a writing utensil, not typing. In fact it’s one of the jobs I thought I would actually have as an adult when I graduated college. I wanted to write ads. Even after my internship at an advertising agency I still had the “itch” to write but I suppose I had a bigger itch to move to Chicago and see what life was like there. And writing took a backseat.
This past weekend I went on a retreat for people in their 20’s and 30’s who are going through a “Transition.” It was advertised in my church bulletin a couple months ago and I recall telling my Mom that I really wanted to attend this retreat and she was so happy for me.
Everyone who knew my Mom, knew she always prayed for anyone in need. When she was first diagnosed with lymphoma in 2009, she received so many cards from friends and family praying for her and sending her well wishes. Lo and behold, months later she was in remission. The prayers were answered. This last time around was no different. Cards came pouring in. We kept all of them and I read them to her shortly before she passed at her bedside.
But what was the most amazing thing is that my Mom herself sent cards and prayed quite frequently – Thank You Cards, Birthday Cards, Just a note to say Hi cards…you name it, she sent them.
So this weekend while I was at the retreat, we had alot of quiet reflection time where we wrote answers to questions regarding the subject matter we had just heard. Then we discussed what we thought. Well, I didn’t do much writing at all because I did better “talking” my thoughts rather than writing them.
But then on the last day of the retreat, we were asked to write our own Personal Creed. I sat in my room and just started free
thinking…free writing? Scribbling down some thoughts here and there and before you knew it I had a rough draft. The rest came pretty easily to me. So here it is!
Sorry it’s so small but if you click on it you should be able to see it.
I’m pretty happy with it. The best part was sharing it with my small group and getting their feedback which was all positive. The only question I got was: “Is this how you see yourself living your life NOW? Or is it a goal of how you WANT to live your life?”
Before she even finished the question I answered: “It’s the goal, this is how I want to live.”
I suppose it’s come full circle: Even though I’m not at my goal yet of being “stage-ready,” I’m constantly working to get there. As with my faith, although I am not living this Creed at this moment, I feel like I’m getting closer to it. I would have to say Mom has a lot to do with it. I definitely felt her presence at the retreat.
Before I end, I must share this random cute story: A co-worker of mine found my Mom’s prayer card from the wake on the seat of her car as she headed into work this morning. Funny thing is, she has no idea how it got there. I had given her a thank you card with my Mom’s prayer card INSIDE of it, but she didn’t even see it. The best part is, she was having a bad day so seeing my Mom’s smiling face on her car seat gave her a little boost to her day. My mom has that effect on people, even now. 🙂
Happy Easter everyone!