An Epiphany at 5 Weeks Out

A friend of mine recently told me: “Nothing motivates you to live like facing a death.  Ride out that momentum. The fire inside evolves and it ignites everything around you.  Life favors people that take chances.”

What prompted this conversation you may ask?  A series of events have taken place this past year to make me re-evaluate my life.  Yes, my mothers death had much to do with this “epiphany.”  Nothing like losing someone close to you to make you think about your own legacy, right?  Isn’t that what we all think when we attend a funeral?  We are reminded that we are mortals.  That we can’t and shouldn’t take life for granted.  But then what happens when we come home from that funeral?  What happens those next few days or maybe weeks?  We go back to our routine, resuming our lives as we were before.

But there are those that don’t forget that feeling of mortality.  And maybe you do things that you shouldn’t and engage in behavior that might be dangerous or addictive because you think you might as well live it up, right?  YOLO, as the kids say these days. 🙂

I’m taking the opposite of that approach.  I’m dreaming bigger.  I’m thinking larger.  I told my friend I have this feeling inside of me lately that can only be described as a fire.  And I don’t think it has much to do with this competition training.  I think that is PART of it but that’s just a small part of my life.

My goal is to bring LIFE out of my life.  Because you know, our days are numbered.  That’s a fact.  But what you choose to do with your life and with those days is completely up to you.  And I refuse to let them just slide by without trying to make a difference in someone’s life, no matter how small that difference may be.

Don’t you ever meet someone or see someone in the news or in your community and they have that fire?  Don’t you ever wish you could be like them?  I do…I want to harness that energy and use it towards something GOOD.  I don’t have a concrete idea of what exactly that might be, but it’s fun to try and figure it all out.

So far, I have made a few decisions about what I want to do – This has potential to turn into my Mission Statement – but for now it’s just a bunch of random thoughts, so bare with me.  Wait…is it bear with me or bare with me? I can never remember.

  1. I want to help people with regards to their health.  Although I’m not an RD, I’m not an MD, I’m not in the healthcare field at all – I know I can still accomplish this.
  2. I want to train people one on one on a regular basis again.  This is my passion.  This is what I feel I was meant to do.  I literally feel like I’m being pulled in this direction after what I’m calling a brief “hiatus.”
  3. I want to coach people with regards to their nutrition and eating habits.  You might say I’m already doing this with my FB page and my background but I’m not doing it on a regular basis and that needs to change.
  4. I want to lead people down the path of optimal health.  I want to accomplish this by establishing long-term clients.  I myself have no intention of leaving my coach – if he’ll keep me of course. 🙂  It helps to have someone in your corner. I want to be THAT person to as many people as I can.

I’m already taking steps to accomplish these goals by discussing training at a couple studios.  Doing my own thing and becoming my own Brand is the ultimate goal.  I truly believe I can make a living out of this, although the time necessary will be long, no doubt.

But the best part is that training independently is just a small part of all I want to do.  It’s just the tip of the iceberg with the difference that I want to make in this world.  There’s much more to come…But let this post serve as a reminder of where my head is at and one year from today I’m going to re-visit this and see just how far I’ve come.  And I’ll repeat that the following year…and the next.  And God-willing, every year for as long as I’m here.

And not to be morbid but more inspirational – my Mom did say a couple things to me on her deathbed that did prompt  the spark that in turn started this fire.  I think I’ll keep her words to myself for now until I write her story.  Another goal to add to the list.  She deserves an entire book in my opinion but for now, I’m working on a large blog post about her final days.


Switching gears to the competition prep:

5 weeks to go and life is good.  I’m getting a little leaner each week.  I’ve stayed pretty consistent with the diet.  I haven’t strayed too far off but if I do find myself adding a couple extra grams of something, I try to balance it out by subtracting a couple grams from another meal to even out.

I won’t say it’s getting easier, but I feel the hardest part is over with regards to the diet.  Ask me this in 4 and half weeks and I might think differently. 😉

As for the workouts, I can now bench 95lbs.  This is just 12lbs short of my weight.

Let’s repeat that – I’m almost able to bench my weight.  There is NO WAY I would have ever thought that was possible a year ago.  Amazing.

I got fitted for my competition suit a few days ago and Oh boy that suit doesn’t leave much to the imagination does it??  YOWZA’S!!! One little slip and I will have a full on wardrobe malfunction in front of an entire auditorium!  Thank goodness for those bikini bites right?

I put the down payment for the competition spray tan.  I’m currently searching for a hair and makeup person for that morning.  And I’ve sent out the information about tickets to my friends and family that want to attend.   All that’s left to do is officially register for the competition itself!

I’ll be entering the Masters Division as well as the Open Figure.  For those that don’t know this means I’ll be competing against women my age (35 in just 10 days!) and over and it won’t matter what height we all are.  I have no idea if it will be 10 women or 30 women.  Who knows!  As for Open, I will be competing against women who are my height and a little over.  So I’m 5’3 and a half and I believe my Class will be 5’3 to 5’4.

After this week, we will be counting down DAYS to the competition and no longer will be counting weeks as it’s getting super close now.

Shameless plug time:  Please check out the interview I did here and on the male site From Fit to Physique and be on the lookout for my first Couple Interview to post next week!

Happy Labor Day Weekend!

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